Sunday, October 12, 2014
Picking food for taste
Saturday, October 4, 2014
Today
Today was a nice day. Got to stay in my pajamas for a little while this morning because I didn't go to petco. I watched some shows, worked a little on a needlepoint project. Then my mom picked me up to go to temple. First I went to a "young person's" meeting for people in their 20's and 30s, and it was very moving. Nice sermon, good prayers. Had lunch. And then went to another service, a contemporary service with folk songs and lots of lovely readings. Very moving service. Really targeted all of the things that have gone on this year and all the things we can do better. We went to a later service as well and ended the day with a "break the fast" at a friend's house. Overall a good day.
I was a little upset, I'll admit, about the fact that my sister and my dad fasted. My dad had said he wasn't going to fast, but he did. I guess it's ok though. They are healthy enough to fast for a day. I am not. Maybe some day I will be able to fast again, when it doesn't fuel my eating disorder. For me fasting would be a sick behavior, and sick behavior is NOT appropriate on a day of atonement.
Today was my first day of no measuring food and no calorie counting… I think it went ok. I didn't measure breakfast, lunch, or dinner. I may be short a little but I'm eating intuitively and that feels REALLY good. I'm finally eating more normally. Finally.
I hope that you all had a lovely day and that you have a peaceful night.
I'm off to eat snack :)
Friday, October 3, 2014
Feeling good about being healthy
Then we ate ice cream. Which tasted awesome! Mud pie (coffee ice cream with cookie crumbles). So delicious. I didn't even measure it and I was able to enjoy the treat! It tasted really good and I focused on that, not the calories, not that it's "bad." It's food that tastes yummy and that's ok! Healthy people are allowed to eat ice cream too. I am allowed to eat food that tastes good.
Then at the end of our meeting I made a decision. I asked my dietician if I could stop measuring my food. For the past several years I have used measuring cups and spoons with ALL of my food… rice, pasta, milk, peanut butter, cereal… you name it I measure it. Pretty obsessive right? But it's what I'm used to. So I made a decision. For this week I am NOT going to measure my food. I can eyeball how much I need. I can eat without measuring. SUPER nervous and scared but ready. I want to be a normal eater. I'm sick of measuring all my food. It's time.
AND. And I'm going to stop counting calories once and for all… not measuring my food will help me because I will not be able to exactly count all the calories. This is a huge step. I can do this. Progress!!!!
I feel good about the progress I've made. I can be PROUD that I am healthy. I am a fighter!! YOU Can do this too!! Take a leap of faith. Healthy is GOOD.
Saturday, August 16, 2014
STILL not enough!
I need to just eat. Not count. Not skip salad dressing. Have the entire cup of soy milk. I need to get more food in, especially since I am walking more... but I guess I'm kind of stuck. I KNOW how to gain weight. I really do. I just need to do it. Just do it.
Today I feel like my stomach is really bloated. I don't know why.. but I'm hoping I will wake up feeling better. I will eat my snack, and go to bed, and it will be a new day. Another chance.
Have a good night :)
Friday, August 15, 2014
A calorie is a calorie
But I did learn a lot at that program about calories and food and how to look at food realistically. Food has different nutrients.... and that is important. But when it comes to eating and gaining weight, the truth is a calorie is a calorie. It doesn't matter if you eat 100 calories in carrots or 100 calories in cookies, it is still 100 calories. You can get your hundred calories and be super full and uncomfortable and gassy, or you can eat a small cookie and get the same nutrition count. A calorie is a calorie is a calorie.
Another thing I learned is diet food is stupid!!! REALLY stupid! First of all, diet food just isn't satisfying. For example: two women go to a restaurant and order dessert. woman #1 orders a weight watchers little dessert, trying to be "good" and "healthy." The other woman orders a slice of cheese cake, eats it, and feels satisfied. Well woman #1 is unsatisfied with her dessert and gets hungry an hour after she's eaten. Woman #2 is satisfied and stays full until her next snack/dinner. The woman who ordered the cheese cake actually made a better choice for her body! Sounds crazy right? And also, diet foods have extra sugar and salt and other crud to add flavor. Moral of the story: choose the real food! It tastes better and it's better for you.
Wednesday, August 13, 2014
Just haven't had enough today
I'm torn. Part of me says "Great job! You're doing the right thing" the other part of me says "What is wrong with you?? Stupid!!!" and I don't know what to believe.
So I have a few options... a) eat my night snack and go to bed. b) eat my night snack and add an ensure plus to make up for what I've missed today c) Add something extra to my snack d) give up and just go to bed
I am not going to give up. And I will most certainly eat my night snack. But I am battling with myself about whether I should add something extra. My body probably needs it. My mind probably needs it. I need it to be healthy.
I hate my brain sometimes!!! It just makes no sense! I need to do what's healthy for my body. End of story.
Night snack: Toast with banana and nutella, and a soy milk latte.
What are you eating right now?
Sunday, August 10, 2014
Day 2
Sunday, August 3, 2014
Need permission to eat
Thursday, July 24, 2014
Reasons not to count calories
I find myself Obsessively counting each calorie throughout the day. Counting and recounting. Rounding up. Cutting little things out of my meal plan to reach a maximum that I'll "allow" myself to eat. It's a waste of time. Major waste! I should be counting my blessings and all the good things in life instead!!
I love this article
Reasons NOT to count calories
1) Labels can lie.
Seriously. Labeling laws allow a 20% margin of error on the nutrition facts panel. That means your 100 calorie snack pack could be 119 calories. Or that 500 calorie TV dinner could be nearly 600 calories. Legally. Ooops.
“[T]he ratio between the amount obtained by laboratory analysis and the amount declared on the product label in the Nutrition Facts panel must be 120% or less, i.e., the label is considered to be out of compliance if the nutrient content of a composite of the product is greater than 20% above the value declared on the label.” – FDA Guidance for Industry: Nutrition Labeling Manual
2) Nutrients vary by season, variety, ripeness, etc.
While it’s nice to have the nutrient analysis of foods, there is no way food companies or the USDA could analyze every variety of tomato from every region from every season from different growing conditions (i.e organic vs. conventional) and every other variable for nutrients, including calories. That super sweet summer tomato likely has more calories (and valuable nutrients) than that tasteless, pink one from the dead of winter. Which one would you rather eat?
3) “More calories equals weight gain” is not an exact science.
If calorie counting worked long term, America would be the thinnest country in the world. We are a nation of compulsive dieters and you wouldn’t know it looking at us. Turns out the composition of what you’re eating is crucial to how many calories you eat and how many calories you burn. In a study comparing 3 diets: low fat, low glycemic, and low carb, the people on the low carb diet burned 350 calories more than the low fat diet. And yet, our nutrition guidelines recommend a low calorie, low fat diet. If you’re happy eating tasteless food and going hungry and not losing weight, by all means, count calories and cut fat out of your diet.
4) We don’t absorb all calories.
A study on almond consumption in humans found that up to 20% of the calories were not absorbed. The exact reason is unknown, but possibly due to the “cellular structure” of nuts and the way our bodies digest food. I would speculate that we absorb a lot more calories from highly processed foods. Maybe that’s just me.
5) Focusing on calories often means we restrict healthy foods.
This especially happens when it comes to fats. We often omit higher fat foods simply because they are higher in calories without taking into consideration what benefits we might get from them, such as staying fuller for longer or having smooth skin. I fully ignore calorie labels on all foods, but especially real foods high in fat like cheese, olives, nuts, and seeds. My body likes these foods and I don’t need a calorie count to sway me away from eating them.
6) Too much math.
Honestly, I don’t have time or energy to calculate everything that goes into my mouth. That probably sounds odd, since my life’s work is helping people improve their health by eating better, but I firmly believe this can be done and is best done without counting. (And I have satisfied clients to prove it.) Counting calories is especially fruitless when you know #1-5.
So now you might be wondering:
If I think calorie counting is a such waste of time, what do I do instead?
How do I prevent myself from eating too much?
How do I stay at the same weight, year after year?
My answer is simple.
11 things I do instead of counting calories:
- I listen to my body.
- I always eat when I’m hungry.
- I eat foods that I’m actually in the mood to eat.
- I put my full attention to the meal in front of me.
- I notice the sensations in my body before, during, and after eating.
- I sit down when I eat.
- I chew every bite before taking another.
- I savor the flavors, texture, mouthfeel, sounds, richness, crunchiness or softness, saltiness or sweetness.
- I make an effort to eat healthy foods and make an equal effort to eat the healthy foods that taste good to me.
- I sometimes choose to eat foods purely for the pleasure of eating them, even when they are not “healthy”.
- I sometimes choose to eat more food than is comfortable, either because the food tastes really good or because I know I wont have time to eat again for a while (such as during a busy work day).
If this sounds like a breath of fresh air, I’m with you. Just putting this down on paper (or rather, in html) feels like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders.
Wednesday, July 16, 2014
Obsessive calorie counting
Wednesday, June 18, 2014
Stop calorie counting!
Why do I make myself miserable?
Cause really, what is a calorie?
It's the energy needed to raise the temperature of 1 gram of water through 1 °C (now usually defined as 4.1868 joules)
So why are we obsessively counting units of energy?? It's silly.
Reasons not to count calories:
- labels aren't 100% accurate anyway!
- there's no way to count the exact
calories in a food as it changes with ripeness, season, etc
- not all calories are absorbed in the body
- waste of time!
- makes healthy foods seem "bad" because they are high calorie - we forget they are great for the body and full of nutrients!
Things to do instead of counting calories:
- listen to your body's hunger signals. Eat until you are satisfied
- eat foods that taste good!
- focus on your meal in front of you, stay In the moment
- eat slowly and enjoy your food
- eat everything in moderation
- focus on tastes and textures that you enjoy
- choose healthy nutrient rich foods and treat yourself to something "unhealthy" when you want it!
- follow your meal plan, use the exchange system if you need
Things to count instead of calories:
- the people who love you
- your blessings
- the hours to something exciting
NEVER STOP FIGHTING!!!





