Obsessive calorie counting

While I've been doing really well the past few weeks, I've fallen into an old pattern... Obsessive calorie counting. Argh!! What a waste of time?? Because really, are the calories important? No! I have my meal plan that is meant for me to be healthy and that's all that matters. But for some reason I find myself daily putting in my food to my fitness pal, and adding and subtracting little things through the day... I'll admit since I found out I'm at my goal weight I've been cutting some corners with my meal plan, feeling like I don't deserve so much food. It started a few weeks ago, I was just curious as to how much I was actually eating and that was a bad idea because now I'm certainly feeling obsessive.... Stupid eating disorder.

So steps to stop calorie counting. I really want to try and have a healthier mind set about food... I also find myself logging my exercise to "erase" the calories I've eaten. Not healthy!! Ok. Steps.

1. Erase My Fitness Pal!! This app NEEDS to go. I do not need to be on a diet website or app. End of story.

2. Stop using my calculator on my phone to count calories. Unfortunately I know the calorie counts to pretty much every food :( some day I will see food as just food and not a number. Big goal! And it will be a big sign that I'm truly in recovery.

3. Eat what feels right (and follow my meal plan) but if I'm hungry, grab some extra veggies or a piece of fruit or even a treat like chocolate or candy :) I deserve it! 

I will be healthy some day. Free of calories and counting and calculating and being miserable with food. Some day we can ALL be healthy. End of story!