1. That I've been counting calories obsessively; that it's unhealthy and crazy making and even when I chew gum I log it on my phone. Crazy I know. I have an app on my phone "my fitness pal" and I've been using it the past few weeks. Tonight I erased it. PANIC
2. That I've been cutting some big corners with my meal plan.... Skipping salad dressing and butter, one less piece of bread, one less tablespoon of peanut butter.. And that's not good for my body. Dietician explained that my restrictingim depriving my body of vital nutrients. And I know she's right but the eating disorder part of me thinks otherwise.
3. Came clean about my two binge/purge episodes this week. I was embarrassed but we came to the conclusion that I am probably just hungry because I'm not eating enough!' The binges are a physiological response to not having enough nutrients.
4. Made plans to do more challenge meals together. Going to restaurants, mindful eating exercises, and even going to buffets! It's scary but I'm EXCITED to finally be able to eat normally.
Some day I will be able to listen to my body without thinking about calories or weight or mirrors. Some day I will be a healthy, intuitive eater.
Starting Tonight with a huge frozen yogurt!
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