It's ok to love someone and be angry

This morning I had therapy... brought my breakfast into session. (English muffin sandwich with egg, cheese, turkey bacon, and strawberries, and soy latte). We talked about family session yesterday. I'm feeling rather angry at my parents right now, even though they haven't done anything lately for me to be upset about. I feel angry about the past... and I guess that's ok. Things were hard and I have the right to be angry.
Growing up, I felt that when someone was angry with me they didn't love me anymore. My mother or father would yell and automatically they no longer loved me. That's a very young way of thinking about things. My parents are working really hard right now to change and for us to develop a healthy relationship... and I'm starting to realize that I can be angry at my parents; in fact I have the RIGHT to be angry at them... but I can love them at the same time. Angry does not mean unloved. People who love each other get angry, it's normal in fact. I'm feeling real anger, and the good thing is I'm not taking it out on my body like I usually do. I'm angry, and that's ok. I still love my parents but I'm entitled to my feelings. My parents feel bad about how everything went when I was a kid, and I'm realizing that they are in a strong enough place to take care of themselves and feel the regret and guilt that they have about how they raised me.
I'm angry, and I'm entitled to my anger.

I'm getting close to my goal weight, and I don't know what I'm feeling... pretty overwhelmed. Sometimes when I look in the mirror I'm happy with what I see. Sometimes I want to cry. I guess it depends on how I'm feeling when I look. Today I'm wearing a tight tank top... it shows my curves, but so far I feel ok with it. I am trying to get used to clothes actually fitting me and not sagging off. Part of me wishes my clothes were still sagging, but part of me is glad that I look healthier. I look stronger. I look like a 21 year old not a 14 year old or even younger girl. I often feel unsafe in a woman's body, but I am safe now. Having a woman's body is not going to get me in trouble like before... at least I hope not. I am 21 years old. It's my body. I can keep my body safe.

Lots going on in my head today, sorry for rambling... so much confusion, so many thoughts and feelings.

Have a lovely day.