Dinner out

Tonight we are having dinner at a restaurant. We get to eat out once a week and it's fun sometimes. Tonight we are at Coco's, which is a diner, and unfortunately I have some bad experience with Coco's. I went through a period of time where I binged and purged on their food so I have some bad memories. But I've eaten here before and been healthy. Tonight I've ordered a veggie burger with sautéed mushrooms, a garden salad, and coffee. Hopefully it will taste good. Trying to focus on just the taste not the calories or nutrition info. Food can taste good and not be a number! I'll admit the thing I ordered is on the "light and fit" menu but some of the other foods are just really high cal and as a result really scary. I'm not ordering the low calorie salad I usually get so I'm taking a step forward I think.

Today I saw my dietician. She's wonderful but I hate that she knows my weight and I don't... And big news! I'm basically at my goal weight! We lowered my meal plan a bit to ease into my goal and I feel glad about that. I guess I had kind of a meltdown about reaching my goal weight (as I know what it is and hence know my weight) but my meltdown was brief and I pulled it together. We ordered sandwiches and got fruit salad and talked and ate under a shady tree. It was nice.

I am not always so positive but there are times when I do feel good at this new weight. I'm stronger and overall just feel better physically. I know I'm doing the right thing even though sometimes it does NOT feel like the right thing. Just got to keep plugging along. Being at my goal weight means many good things are going to start happening, and I hope it's soon!

Choosing recovery is so hard but I'm pretty sure it's worth it. Never stop fighting.