Heading in the right direction!!

I am SO excited!! I talked to my therapist today and she said I can move out of residential and into independent housing within the next couple weeks!! Eek!!! All my hard work had paid off!! The refeeding - eating, stomach aches, bloating, foot swelling, hiccups, acid reflux - all worth it! Now I can proudly say I am physically healthy and ready to move onto the next step in my treatment and life! I can't explain how glad I am to be moving toward more independence. There are many things I'm looking forward to.

1. Having new roommates. My current 

roommates are pretty ignorant of others because they are very much in their own heads. It's, as a result, hard to make friends with them. In independent living I will have roommates that hopefully care and become friends! There are a couple houses I could potentially move into, all with very nice young women I am friends with. I can't wait to have some more peer support.

2. Being able to make my own breakfast! Currently I wake up around 7am and breakfast at this house is not until 9:30 so by then I'm so hungry!! Doesn't 9:30 seem a bit late for breakfast? Also if I wake up and really want waffles and it is planned to have cereal, I'm stuck with waffles. I look forward to having some more flexibility with my breakfast.

3. Not having to ask staff for food. Currently all food is locked up in the staff office so when I need my snacks I always have to ask for it, and it's kind of embarrassing. I feel that I'm constantly asking for food. In regular housing we keep all the food in the fridge and pantry like normal... So I will be free to grab snacks as I need them.

4. Being able to cook without supervision! I know how to use a stove and oven and will be very happy when I'm trusted to use them myself without setting the house on fire haha.

5. Being able to go for walks when I want and eventually go for runs in the morning! I can't wait to have more independence and freedoms to go where I want! 

6. Being able to have my rats Drew and Annie. It will be so nice to have some furry companions. They aren't exactly cuddly but they are sweet and love attention. I just have to make sure it's ok with my new housemates!

7. No staff watching all the time. Right now staff are constantly watching me. In regular housing that won't be the case! I will have staff support throughout the day, but not constant supervision. I look forward to feeling like an adult again. 

8. Not having chemicals and sharp objects locked up. When I got to Hanbleceya I was just out of the hospital and for safety I needed to have these things locked up. But now I feel safe to have my razor to shave my legs, and I feel ok with having bleach to clean. I don't worry that one of my parts will harm the body. It's a nice feeling to trust myself again.

There are more things I'm looking forward to... I'm just SO excited for this new chapter of my life. So ready to have some more independence, ready to have some freedom and feel that I can be trusted again. Once I know the details of when and where I will be moving to I will post immediately! 

Moving forward!!