Everybody deserves to eat

I often feel running through my head the thought "I just don't deserve to eat." I believe I'm not worthy, not deserving of food, especially food that is indulgent and tastes good. In many ways my eating disorder is directly related to suicidal ideation. Not eating = slow death. Which is scary. Now that I want to live again, I am eating! And I am proving that I want to be alive by taking care of my body.

But really, everybody deserves to eat. EVERYBODY. Whether you're tall, short, black, white, fat, slim, dark haired, light haired..... nobody is excluded. Bodies need nourishment to survive, and everyone deserves to live, therefore everybody deserves to eat.

I work with preschoolers. They act up and act bratty, but does that mean they don't deserve to eat? Even if they are being rotten and snotty, they deserve food and nourishment! And I work with cats. We have a new kitty this week where I work, and she is terrified. Any time someone tries to reach into her crate, she hisses and growls and bats with her paws. The poor kitty is terrified, and therefore not very nice, but she deserves to eat just like any other creature. She deserves good food and water and love and patience.

So you deserve to eat. I deserve to eat. No matter what kind of day you're having, what you've said or done, even if you've done something wrong, eating is a human need. To live you have to eat. And you DESERVE that food. Sometimes I think I'm different, that I'm not worthy like other people... but that's ridiculous. I would never deprive my kids or my kitties of food, so why should I deprive myself? I shouldn't. And now I'm eating, even when I don't feel I deserve it, because I want to be alive.

So be kind to yourself today and EAT because you deserve it. All of it.