The WHOLE meal plan

Yesterday I ate almost my whole meal plan and it felt ok. But I calculated the calories and I felt ok with it. Well this morning I calculated today's calories and it is so much!!! ahh!!! It's a ridiculously high number and it's freaking me out. Do I really need this many calories?!! I emailed my dietician and she said yes. Yes I need all these calories. Eek. 

Trying to accept that I need this much food. Trying to tell myself that I deserve to eat this much. I feel so uncomfortable with all this. But really... It's a number. It's an estimation of what I'm consuming and it just doesn't matter that much. I need energy and food. End of story. It is what it is.

So I will eat everything I need. Follow my plan and consume the calories needed to keep my body running healthily. It's uncomfortable but I am determined!!

This morning I went for a lovely walk by the lake. It was refreshing and made me feel good. I know that if I want to keep walking and eventually start running and doing more exercise I need the energy and that means I need to eat! Trying to come to a place of acceptance...

This morning breakfast is Greek yogurt with berries and almonds and a bran muffin. The muffins are not my "safe" muffins so I'm a little anxious but that's ok I'll make it through.