I am tired of the house I'm living in. The good news is that I will be moving out and Into another house very soon which means I will have new roommates... YAY. My roommates right now are very much in their own heads and not supportive or friendly at all. Three of my roommates are guys and they are just GROSS. They don't shower or wear deodorant or change their clothes. It's disgusting. Sometimes when they are near me I just have to hold my breath! My other roommates are women but they are not very nice. One is quiet and one is just flat out mean. She is old but still... A smile now and then isn't that much to ask!
When I move out of this House and into regular housing I will have much more independence (no staff) and I will (hopefully!!) have some housemates who care and are nice and can be supportive. I'm really looking forward to maybe having some friends. I feel so lonely right now. I have met a nice girl, and we went on a walk spontaneously the other night. It was really nice! For the first time in ages I felt like a normal young adult just meeting up with a friend. I hope I will have more "normal" experiences soon. I'm tired of feeling like I'm just sick and incapable because I'm no incapable. I just have to continue proving that I'm healthy and I'm on my way to independence! I'm also going to get my pet rats Drew and Annie :) they are not quite at the status of my kitty but they are very sweet and it will be nice to have some furry companions.
Here are my rats drew and Annie when they were babies :) they are bigger now but just as adorable!
I guess I have to just keep reminding myself I DO have things to look forward to! Independence.... Pets... School in the fall (yes school finally!!) and eventually driving again. I just have to stay healthy and keep reminding myself it IS WORTH IT!!!
Never ever give up on your dreams! What are you looking forward to?
No comments:
Post a Comment