HUNGRY

Today I am hungry.
And it's freaking me out! I am not used to being hungry, I'm used to being full... so what does this mean? Am I feeling anxious or lonely and craving food, or is my body actually hungry? I think it might be that my body is actually hungry. My metabolism is in overdrive.
I haven't kept everything down today :( That may be part of the reason why I feel so hungry. I need to get back on track, and I will with dinner. Maybe an ensure would be helpful? I am determined not to fall into a trap of purging. And even binging.... I could eat an entire half gallon of ice cream right now.
What to do what to do. I had some extra carrots but purged those... that's how afraid I am of eating anything off my meal plan. I need to be more flexible, I know...

Sushi for dinner tonight. I will eat, not give into the guilt. I can do this.
Getting back on track...