Today I put on makeup, put cream in my hair, and put on a pink tank top and skirt. I have been told by many people how good I look. Now I'm not good at taking compliments, especially about how I look, but I'm feeling happy that people are noticing I'm taking care of myself. It's a real self esteem booster for people to look at me and think I look nice, not tired or depressed or self conscious.
I had my second family session today and it went well. My parents are taking a lot of ownership for the way I was treated as a kid and I trying to take in their apologies. It's hard. I want to rescue them, tell them everything's ok... But it wasn't all ok. My parents talk about how they wish they could go back in time and redo my childhood...and in a funny way they can. I am an adult but inside I have parts of me who are 2.3,4,5 really little. They need love and care from me but can also get it from my parents. So in a way my parents are lucky! They can interact with the parts of me that are little and give them a childhood they never had.
Not excited about dinner tonight... Some kind of gooey cheesy casserole. But going to try and power through. Food is good and it's ok to eat everything in moderation. I usually don't eat the casserole dishes, but I'm going to try it this time. Maybe it will taste good. Won't know until I try it!! After dinner is board game night. Or more like bored game night haha.
How are you spending your evening?
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