It's been a successful day. So far at least. Volunteered with my petco kitties, doctor appointment, and now some groups. Nothing exciting. But it's been tolerable.
And I've eaten 100% of what I need without any purging! Haven't even really had the urge to purge today. I got weighed. I'm still not allowed to walk any... Part of me is relieved that I haven't gained enough weight to earn walking again. But part of me is so frustrated that I have absolutely no freedom! If my weight goes up I can walk. If my weight goes up../ what does that mean? All I know is the food is not making me gain 10 pounds in one week, and that's a huge relief. I feel swollen and bloated but that will pass eventually if I give it a few more days behavior free. I'm drinking lots of water and tea and hoping my body will sort itself out. Right now it feels like food is just piling up In my stomach all day... That my body has forgotten how to digest and I will be bloated forever. But that's not the case!! I will continue to eat and be healthy and everything will be ok.
Need to keep pushing through!
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