A little about our parts

Well I explained in the first post that I have DID, or dissociative identity disorder. It's a complicated illness, as my brain seems to have split into pieces - 13 or so. Even I'm not used to having parts. I have constant chaos in my head, constant chattering, and when other parts of me come to the front, I act as though I am different person all together. I have large gaps of time where I don't remember what's happening because my other parts are "fronting" or speaking for me.
Some days I have having parts - it feels complicated. I just want to be a normal 21 year old. But I am very grateful that I have my parts. They protected my mind when I was being abused as a child. Without my parts I may not have been able to survive. And I did survive. So I am grateful.
It's kind of like having little sisters, I guess (And a brother), and I get annoyed with my parts. I also have parts who are destructive and suicidal and it makes life difficult. A few months ago, one of my parts took a lethal overdose. That was scary. And one of my parts does not do well with eating, and another part cuts. It's all very overwhelming.
Let me introduce you to all my "selves." My beautiful little system.

Nina: 2 years old. Don't know much about her

Arielle and Gabriella: 3-4 years old

Rosie: 4 years old - very sweet and quiet, but sad and tearful most of the time. Loves dolls and coloring. 

Polly: My interior protector, who comes to the front quite often. Very spunky and sweet, and a cockeyed optimist. I think her name came from the book "Pollyanna" as she is always playing the "Glad game." I love polly and most people love her too. She is the part of myself that I am proud of. 

Bee: An angry little girl - cuts and self harms, and often cries. Not much comforts her. She is one of the girl I am trying to care for and soothe right now. I wish I could get to her and help her feel better. She is in a very dark place right now. 

Rose: 8 years old, another helpful part, usually in a good mood and cheerful. Doesn't come to the front much.

Boy: Don't know much about boy, other than that he's 11 and plays the piano.
Kate and Samantha: 11 years old, quiet, and very scared. Don't come out much.
Alison: 14 and suffering from a severe eating disorder. Poor girl is giving the whole system a very hard time with eating. But we are trying hard to work with her, let her talk, trying to understand why she is so unhappy and needs to harm the body the way that she does.

Charlotte: very sad, very angry, really struggling. She took the overdose a few months ago. Poor girl is miserable, and i am trying desperately to reach her. She scares me, but I love her and want her to know I care. 

Then there's "Nobody" an older and younger version. Not sure what their role is. confusing I know. 

That's a little about me and my parts. 

Good night everyone. Sleep well.