Obsession

I'll admit it… I am obsessed with body checking in mirrors and windows. Body checking is where you study and check out your body… and I am terrible about it. Every window, every reflection is my enemy. Some mirrors I feel fine. Some I feel huge. Some I feel terrible. Mirrors lie! They are all different and not very accurate. It's very frustrating though. I feel the need to study my body in each reflection and it's getting old! I've changed outfits more than once today, and I want to stop. I want to put on an outfit in the morning and feel ok in it all day. By the end of the day especially I am just miserable because I am bloated. But that is normal. Bloating is normal. If you eat throughout the day, you are going to look more bloated by the end of the day. It's not just me… it's anyone who eats throughout the day (that's everyone).

I am tired of obsessing over my body. It just isn't that important!! It really isnt! People who are care about me aren't going to care less because I weigh a bit more. nope. Real friends will not care.

I am going to make it a goal for the new year to be less critical of my body. I don't need to criticize myself in every reflection. I'm sick of it.

I can learn to love my body and you can too.
Hang in there.