End of the day

I am most definitely a morning person... by the end of the day I am just so tired and worn out and feel ugly and bloated and I just want to curl up in a ball and go to sleep. I've been going to sleep pretty early these days as I just don't want to be awake anymore! Luckily the medicine I take knocks me out or I'd be awake and wired all night long! I don't like relying on medication to sleep but it certainly helps. Sometimes I wonder if I'd actually sleep if I didn't take my meds... so far any time I don't take my meds I don't sleep, so I guess that answers that.

Tonight I have to take a shower, which I really hate. Being without clothes and getting all soaking wet just isn't a good experience for me. It feels unnatural and uncomfortable and I just don't like the whole process. And then when I'm standing under the hot water I get warm and comfortable and I don't want to get out haha. Such a dilemma... I wish I didn't have to shower! But I do. I won't complain.

I will get picked up in 10 minutes and then it's home to eat because I am HUNGRY. I have been thinking about night snack for the past hour, as all I had for dinner was a sandwich. I am SO hungry and I'm honestly a little anxious because I don't want to binge. I will serve myself and eat my oatmeal with banana and pumpkin seeds and it will taste good and I won't need to binge because I will be full and happy. But right now I am just ravenous! I could eat everything in the house!!

Hope you all have a good night :)