I have been ravenous all day and I'll admit it's freaking me out a little bit. I'm so anxious. i want to eat but I am afraid I will go overboard and binge and then I'll be in trouble. I feel so panicky about this feeling of hunger… and I don't quite know what to do…. drink an ensure? Have another snack? I don't know. I told myself I wouldn't count calories today but I just calculated… tonight is pizza for dinner and I've already told myself I'm not having any. But that's silly. I just feel confused and anxious.
Some day this will all be sorted out. I won't freak out if I am hungry, I will EAT something. I won't panic and have to drink ensure I will be healthy and sane and comfortable with my body. I don't know WHY I'm afraid to eat something more… I had an apple and peanuts for snack… I could have some more nuts, or hummus and carrots, or toast with strawberry cream cheese. It all sounds good.. but I'm afraid to let myself have any. Silly I know. Ugh. I hate this.
I will aim to have at least one slice of pizza at the party tonight. Pizza is not bad, pizza is not bad! Pizza is food. I will bring a granola bar just in case I think. But I will try to eat with everyone else.
This panic WILL subside. I am just so anxious at the moment.
Any suggestions about how to deal with hunger? I could use some answers!!! My brain sucks sometimes!
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