Feeling healthy

I've noticed, especially tonight, that I'm not as bloated as I've been previous nights. It feels really good… and the funny thing is I've increased my calories a bit! It goes to show how important nutrition is and how your body responds to getting enough energy. I am getting enough nutrition and my body is responding, and that feels awesome!! I am thrilled that my body has finally adjusted to eating again.

Tomorrow I see my dietician bright and early for breakfast session. I don't want to get weighed… I'm afraid of what the result will be.. but at the same time I feel ok. My clothes fit, bloating is down, I'm pretty comfortable with my body, so who cares what the number is?? Part of me is afraid to get a calorie decrease. I'm afraid I'd feel deprived or bingy. I don't want a lower meal plan.. but I also don't want to soar into a weight range that I'm uncomfortable with. I trust my dietician will adjust my meal plan accordingly to keep me healthy. She keeps herself healthy so why would she want me to be unhealthy??

We are eating breakfast together, and I have it all planned out already. English muffin with cream cheese (I found pumpkin spice cream cheese in the 99 cent store and it's delicious!! Tastes like pumpkin pie) and yogurt with a little granola and berries, and coffee with soy milk. It will be tasty and I will have support, so I might as well pack something substantial.

Eating is hard. But being sick is harder. Eating sucks sometimes. But eating can also be enjoyable. I hope to find peace and balance with food and my body. To eat healthily and intuitively and to feel ok. To listen to my body and hunger signals. Some day I will be able to do all these things. Some day.

Hope you have a lovely night.
Peace <3