Some day I'll eat pizza

Tonight we had a New Years pizza party.... And I couldn't bring myself to eat any pizza. After a slip up earlier in the afternoon I just didn't feel I could eat pizza and make healthy choices. Now I am starving. Planning to have a big night snack to make up for lost nutrition. 

Goal for the new year: EAT PIZZA!! Every pizza party we've had I just not been able to bring myself to enjoy the food. I like pizza. I think it tastes good. But I guess it scares me. This year I WILL eat pizza. Pizza is really just bread and sauce and cheese... I eat all those things so what's the issue? I will make it a goal.

I don't know if I'm going to stay up til 12. It just doesn't feel very festive. I will go to sleep and tomorrow will be a new year. 2015... Wow. This year has been slow and short all at once. It seems like my birthday was yesterday... My suicide attempt feels like years and years ago. It's been a tumultuous year. But I'm alive and kicking. So bring on 2015 a year of health and a year of pizza.

Cheers!!!