The first thing is calorie counting. I know I've said I would stop, but the truth is I haven't stopped. I count everything I eat: food is not enjoyable to me, it's a number and that sucks! I want to be able to eat just because I need to and because the food tastes good, not because it has the lowest number of calories. That's no way to live. I'm frustrated that I know the calorie counts to every food. It drives me crazy! I need to stop I just don't know how. My brain is an internal calculator. Sigh.
Second problem is cutting corners, and I'm probably only cutting corners because I am counting calories. If I stopped counting I might not obsess so much and cut things out of my meals. For example at lunch I cut out salad dressing on my salad, and picked a plum which has the lowest calories of all the fruit in the house. I am only having one starch for snack instead of two... It's little things but they do make a difference.
Tomorrow I have my session with my dietician and we are going out to lunch at McDonald's. Ahhhh. I don't know what I am going to order. I used to binge there all be time so I'm very anxious about eating the food and keeping it down. But my dietician is really supportive and I know she'll help me through the lunch.
About to go in to group. Hope everyone is having a good day. :)
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