Need to get motivated

I'm noticing that my food intake is getting lower and lower each day. Skipping foods and Cutting corners on my meal plan has become a norm, a bad habit, and I really need to change this! Today I have eaten but I've counted each calorie and I know I haven't eaten enough. I need all the nutrition I can get. I need to get restricting out of my head and just make it not an option. I made purging not an option, and it worked. Restricting cannot be an option. It only hurts me. I need 100% of my meal plan. All the nutrients.

Today I've already counted everything out. I will have my dinner (which is small because I'm in class) and then have my snack and it looks like I'm going to need to add an ensure plus. I can do this. I can push myself. My nutrition is completely up to me now. No staff watching me eat!! I need to prove to everyone and to myself that I can do this. That I can maintain my weight and eat normally. And normally for me is different from someone else's normal. My body needs lots of nutrition to repair the damage I've done over the years. That might mean I need to eat more than "normal" whatever that means. I know what my body needs. I just need to eat!!

Tomorrow is a new start. A chance to not count calories and to eat 100%. I've got this.