Holding on to the good!

At some points throughout the day I want to crawl out of my skin because I am so uncomfortable. And then there are the brief moments where I feel good! And I have realized how important it is to cling on to the good moments! Because when I'm feeling bad I know that it will pass and I Will feel better a little later on. Negative thoughts feel really strong but so do the positive!! I want to make it so the good are more frequent and stronger than the negative.

There are so many things in recovery that I am looking forward to and I just have to keep those things in the front of my mind. Push away the negative and revel in the positive, enjoy those moments when I do feel good.

When I'm in recovery I will do so many wonderful things and have good experiences. I will learn to eat intuitively and eat when I'm hungry and stop when I'm full. I won't have to count calories or follow a meal plan I will just eat because that's what my body needs. I won't measure out my food and use measuring cups for everything I eat. I will eat treat foods and feel ok and enjoy them because they taste good. I will have a healthy body inside and out and have energy to run and dance and sing and play my guitar. I will go back to school and NOT end up in the hospital. I will get my degree in social work and start helping people and kids who need it. I will be strong: I will be independent. Some day I will meet someone I love and start a family, have kids, be a mom. 

There are so many good things to look forward to if I can just cling on to the positives. I am going to make it. I'm going to get healthy, and when I feel down on myself I will remind myself that the feelings are temporary. Most likely in a little while I'll feel ok.

Sometimes I feel ok. And I'll cling to that.