Learning from slip ups

I have made a lot of progress in the past several weeks. I went from eating hardly anything and purging to eating 100% of my meal plan with almost no purging. The transformation I've made is dramatic. And I feel very proud of myself. I did what other people in my life thought was impossible. I almost ended up in the hospital, but I turned things around and got healthy. Now, for the first time in years, I have been hospital free for 6 months. This is truly a miracle. I never thought I'd come this far.

Tonight after dinner, I had a slip up. I responded, on a whim, to anxiety about moving and feeling overwhelmed about school. I don't know WHY I did it. I was having a good day... but I did. And I feel bad. I emailed my dietician and told her what had happened, and she told me that slip ups happen, not to get down on myself about it. And do you know what I'm doing? I'm moving forward. I slipped up. It happened. Now I'm moving forward.

I've only had a few slips the past several weeks. And each time that I've slipped up, I've learned from y mistake. I learned that what I get too hungry, and lonely, and tired, and angry I respond by having behaviors. I need to eat consistently to keep myself from binging, and I need to tell myself positive things to keep myself from purging. I need to follow my meal plan and listen to my body, and eat when i get hungry because that is what my body needs. I need to eat consistently, sleep enough, and take enough time to myself to clear my head and prevent myself from getting overwhelmed. I know what I need to do. Today I just didn't take care of myself the way I needed to and it resulted in eating disorder behaviors.

I am moving forward. And I am learning.