Today has been very challenging, from the beginning! Waffles in the morning, Mcdonald's for lunch, and then out to Sushi for dinner!! I can't believe how far I've come in just a short period of time. A few months ago I would not have been able to do this... I would have eaten, maybe, but then purged everything. I would have panicked trying to figure out how to sneak out and purge, and then panicked because I couldn't purge everything, and then felt dizzy because I wasn't eating well. But today I ate everything, and kept it all down! Huge success!!
I'll admit that I counted out every calorie today. And I also feel really guilty for not going on a second walk. But it's ok. I have eaten what my body needs. In fact my body probably needs more. But for going out twice I've done well.
So I have some goals... some of them I've talked about and aren't new, but I feel that writing them out makes me accountable.
Goals:
1. STOP calorie counting. Tomorrow. Do not count out the calories for the day and do not track them throughout the day. No point, only keeping me back.
2. Exercise only the amount I'm supposed to. No more than 1 hour a day. I don't need to do any more than that. My body deserves to rest. I don't have to force myself to walk if I don't want to.
3. No cutting corners. Put all salad dressing, all butter, and drink full cups of soy milk. No skimping on anything!
I can do this. I've done it before. I know I keep setting the same goals, and I will continue to set these goals until I know I've achieved them. I will be in independent living and free soon!!! I must continue proving that I deserve the independence.
What are your goals for yourself? What are you working on? Who is reading my blog? Anyone? I'd love to hear from you. Don't be afraid :)
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