Clothes

It's funny... I'm noticing that clothes are looking different on my body. They just don't look the same as they did a couple months ago. But you know what? I'm actually liking how my clothes look! Today is my second day of not wrapping my chest In ace bandages, and it feels ok actually. I am learning to embrace my new recovery body. 

My body is much bigger than It was a few weeks ago. But my clothing size is the same and clothes actually look better on me now! I'm not so sickly looking. I feel strong and healthy, and that feels good. Of course I have days and moments where I feel uncomfortable, but for the most part I am getting used to my new shape.

This is huge progress for me. I've had so much trouble accepting my body, I have always struggled with this. And finally I can look in the mirror and be proud of my recovery. My hair is healthier, my skin is better, I am not pale and hollow looking.

Appearance is far from the most important thing. What's on the inside is what counts. But it helps to feel good on the outside as well as the inside. How did I get here? Lots of positive self talk and affirmations. I can't always be positive. Sometimes I just can't bring myself to say anything nice about myself. But I'm trying to turn my thoughts around. Focus on my new strength and energy and be grateful for all my body does for me.

Recovery is an amazing thing. Keep fighting and you'll get there. Every day things look a little brighter!!