No mirrors

My new house is great. Lots of independence. Lots of freedom. It's quiet. But you know what's missing?? A MIRROR. At my other house I had mirror closet doors. At this house the only mirrors are in the bathroom and they are only half-length mirrors. I am going crazy! Trying to get dressed is a hassle as I have to keep walking back and forth to the bathroom from my bedroom. I really need a mirror for my door. 

I am going to get a mirror. But I have been thinking "I can survive without a mirror." Right? The mirror is not the most important thing in the world. Looks are not the most important thing in the world. I can live without seeing my reflection. I am not conceded or vain. But on the other hand, I want to make sure I look ok. I am very self-consious about my mid section and legs, and I want to make sure that the clothes I wear make me look ok. I am just so uncomfortable :/ I want the mirror to make sure I look ok.  

I know it's silly that I'm so concerned about having a mirror... I wish it didn't matter to me. I'll admit I got dressed in a hurry this morning and didn't look at my reflection and I survived. I didn't see my reflection until I got to school and saw myself in the glass, and I felt ok I guess. But by the time class was over I was really uncomfortable. I changed into a skirt and black tank top when I got home. And then changed into shorts. And then into leggings, and then into shorts again, and now in work out clothes. Ugh. I just want a day where I feel ok in my body. I hate feeling this way. 

Looks are FAR from everything. People who care about me don't judge me based on my looks. They care about me as a person. I am the person who notices all the flaws. And it needs to stop. I'm wondering if having my first calorie-count/restrict free day is subconsciously making me more aware of my body? I'm determined. I can do this. I just wish I wasn't so uncomfortable.