Not looking forward to dinner

I am NOT looking forward to dinner. It's some creamy chicken dish and I just am not in the mood for heavy food :( I have to eat or else I'll have to drink ensure and I don't want that. I'll push through. I just wish I didn't have to eat food I don't like.

Today has been a pretty good day. Got weighed and my meal plan is staying the same. I guess that's a good thing it means I'm stable. But I really really want my dietician to lower my meal plan. I feel as though I'm eating so so much it feels excessive. I need to stop cutting corners on my meal plan but I keep thinking to myself "the reason my weight is stable is because I'm cutting corners!" What would happen if I ate everything? Would I balloon up in a few days?  I know I need to eat everything it just doesn't feel right.

Feeling really uncomfortable in my body today, so I'm wearing baggy pants and a sweatshirt. It's ok to be comfortable as long as I don't make baggy clothes a habit. I saw my psychiatrist today and she's going to lower my medications! Yay!! 

I Will make it through dinner. Can and will. No steps backward!