To count or not to count?

I got weighed today. And my dietician's response was "you need to be eating your meal plan. Your whole meal plan, no cutting corners." I am frustrated because I am literally 5 lbs or less away from my target weight. My weight has been stable for a month but it still needs to go up a bit, and my semi-restricting is getting in the way of that happening. So I need my whole meal plan.

The thing is, I was counting calories. Calculating everything I ate, to make sure it wasn't to much I guess, but also to make sure it was enough. And I was doing fine. But the calorie counting was starting to get obsessive so this weekend I decided to put an end to it. No more counting. Just eating my exchanges, because that's what my body needs.... my question is do I count or do I not count? Today I have no idea whether I met my meal plan needs. I ate basically what was written, with a few corners cut here and there... but I ate everything for the most part. I really am hungry is the problem, and I don't know if I should allow myself more food. I will have my night snack.... I just find myself eating lots and LOTS of carrots and salad to make up for hunger, when I'd really like some more real food. I'm hungry quite often, and I don't know if it's true hunger or emotional hunger... if I was counting I'd KNOW whether I've had enough to eat... but I'm afraid that if I do count and the number is higher than I'd like it to be that I'll restrict my snack. And I can't do that.

I'll admit I've had some sneaky thoughts.... water loading next time I get weighed so that I'm in my goal weight.... sewing weights to my clothes. And where will this get me??? NOWHERE. I will only be hurting myself. I will be shooting myself in the foot. I will eat my meal plan and do what I'm supposed to, and be honest about what behaviors I'm having. I am strong enough. I gained most of the weight and I CAN gain the last few pounds. It won't make that much of a difference, right?

So I will not be counting tonight. It's not worth the stress. I will eat my snack and go to sleep and wake up feeling proud that I made it through another day successfully. I can do this.