I just had dinner… I made it it was delicious. "Fried rice" quinoa with lots of vegetables and a salad on the side. It was really tasty, with soy sauce and ginger… super yummy. And after having my serving I was still kind of hungry so I ate some more veggies out of the rice. I felt guilty about eating those extra veggies.. I'm afraid I'm eating too much… but here is reality: I am not overly stuffed after eating, my clothes still fit… I am OK. I AM OK. Eating some extra vegetables and quinoa is NOT going to affect me. It is healthy food, nutritious energy for my body and that is good. Eating some extra vegetables is not binging. It is eating healthy. And normally. I am eating normally. And that is something I am proud of.
So I will not act on urges tonight. I am drinking tea, I am resting… I will have my snack later… and I will be ok. I will. I can trust my body to eat what I need. I don't have to burn off the calories I've eaten, they are healthy for my body. I CAN trust my body.
Panicking a little but I am going to be alright. I am stronger than my eating disorder. I am strong I am healthy. I can do this.
Just wanted to let you know that as a fellow woman in recovery (I have DID), I may not know your personal struggle, but I do know how much we all need the support of one another. You can do this! Standing with you.
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