Believing in myself

It seems that right now the people in my life have more faith in me than I have in myself. Both my therapists have told me that I really haven't slipped back too far and that they have no doubt I will get back on track, and my dietician said the same thing. They believe I can do this. That I can get back on track and be ok.

The problem is that I'm having trouble believing in myself. I feel that I have fallen on my face, that I'm a zillion steps backwards, that I have failed. I don't feel like I can get myself together. I feel lost and hopeless :(

But I CAN do this. I can do this. I have done it before. I am more determined than ever. Breakfast and lunch were not a success. But I am meeting some friends for frozen yogurt and I will enjoy it and keep it down. I will spend the time with my friends and not focus on freaking out about having a treat. It is my decision to get back on track. My choice. My job. And I can do this. I keep saying it and I know it's getting old. I'm just trying to convince myself that I can turn my act around.

Tonight is school. Dinner in class so hopefully that will be a good distraction. I am going to focus on really condensing my foods to make eating easier. Any moment is a chance to start over. I still have time. I can do this (sorry again).

Moving forward. Keep rooting for me!