Failings

I feel as though I have failed the past few days… slip after slip after slip :( I feel like I've messed myself up, like I'm ruined the progress I've made. I feel like an utter failure. Behaviors for three days straight, NOT good. I am really upset by how I've done the past few days. 

Is there any point in wallowing? NO. I am moving forward. I am making progress. I am going in the right direction. I know I have made mistakes the first few days, but I am learning and growing and each mistake IS a chance to learn. Every time I mess up I can look at the situation and realize that I've messed up but that I am still going forward. 

Tonight after dinner I panicked. I wanted to run out of the house and run to the store, but I didn't. I made coffee, I sat down, and started working on my needlepoint project. I am keeping dinner down, end of story. And I am eating my night snack end of story. I am determined. I am stronger than this. I can do this. 

I will NOT go backwards any further. The only way to go is forward, and that is where I'm going. 

Not giving up.