Pros and cons

I have recently asked my dietician if i can know my weight… I want to know. Not because it will make me feel better necessarily, but because let's say I go to the doctor and get weighed and I'm surprised. That will NOT be a good thing. I will be caught off guard. I don't want to be caught off guard. I want to be OK with my weight. Not freak out about it. I have a number in my head about what I weigh. I don't know if it's right. So pros and cons of knowing my weight.

Pros:

Not being caught off guard if I get weighed

Having a sense of reality about my weight

Being OK with knowing my weight and dealing with the knowledge in a healthy way

Knowing my body

Cons:

Potentially freaking out

Starting to restrict again

Not feeling safe in my body

Being angry

Being afraid

Feeling ashamed

I want to know. I want to be prepared though. I'm going to get weighed now. Will report later!