Feeling like an utter, complete, total, miserable failure. I have not done well with eating. At all. I am so upset. I feel really angry with myself. I am letting myself down. I am failing. I am so sad. My stomach is growling. Dinner tasted good, but I couldn't keep myself together. What is wrong with me??
Putting things in perspective. I am doing MUCH better than I was a few months ago. I took several steps forward and now I've taken a couple steps back. So overall I am still moving forward. It is hard to accept that I am in the midst of a mini relapse. But I can turn things around. I know I can. I don't want to be miserable anymore. I want to be strong and healthy. I want to feel proud of myself at the end of the day. Not angry. Not shot down. I want to feel proud again. Eating is uncomfortable. But this feeling of failure is even worse. Ugh. I suck.
Tomorrow is a new day. I can do this.
I am NOT going to give up now.
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