Good morning!

Good morning! I'm feeling a bit more oriented this morning. I've packed breakfast and I'm getting ready to go to school. I made my coffee with only one sweetener this morning, so I'm working on the sweetener thing. Feeling a bit lost, but glad to be back and in the swing of things. Today is supposed to be family therapy but I won't be participating. I feel pretty upset about that…. I feel like I've done something wrong. My therapist says they are just giving me time. But I feel like this is a punishment.

I've been thinking about Gail, the part of me that was out for the past couple weeks. She's 19, a time when I was very alone and had to be very grown up even though I really needed help and people to take care of me. I was at, probably, the worst I've ever been with my eating disorder… really sick… and I was so alone. Gail seems to be the tough part of me that adamantly refused to get help from my parents. Gail froze out my parents this week… and I understand why she did that. But I'm back and I'm not angry with my parents.

Sorry if I'm not making sense. Everything is confusing right now.
Have a lovely day!