Trouble

I saw my therapist this morning and I did not get good news. She told me that if my weight isn't up on Friday I will be going back to the residential house. That I may need more support. My response: NOT GOING TO HAPPEN. I refuse to step backwards. I cannot go back to that restrictive environment I would be so incredibly disappointed in myself. I can't do it. CANNOT. 

So what do I do? NO purging NO restricting, eat a little more than I'm comfortable with. I have to get my weight up. I honestly thought my weight was fine.. but I was wrong. 

I HAVE to make this work. Today I had breakfast and I had a latte for snack, and then I will have my lunch. Lunches have been hard for me, so I am determined to make it successful. I can do this. No residential for me. I am stronger than this. I am motivated. I am fighting with everything inside of me. I can do this. I must do this. No other options. 

Lunch in 30 minutes. I can do this.