Today

Today started out as a failure. Didn't do well with breakfast, snack, or lunch. But after lunch I made an ensure latte and drank that. And then I had dinner which was actually really tasty. I made chili with rice and steamed carrots. Tasted really good. In fact I was still hungry and I could have had another serving. But I didn't. I feel really guilty when I'm still hungry after eating what is on my meal plan. It feels like I shouldn't be hungry but I am. Weird feeling and super uncomfortable for me. I don't like being hungry. After dinner I talked to my roommate and made decaf coffee and now I feel ok. I will have my snack in a little while. 

I keep losing faith in myself. Sometimes I just want to give up. Throw in the towel and say I can't do this anymore. But I can do this. I can. I've done it before and I can do it now. Tomorrow is a new day. A chance to start fresh. I plan to make it a good day. I have a group right after breakfast so I can't get in trouble. And then I see my therapist and I will talk to her. I know I can do this. I can. I just have to make the healthy choice no matter what. It's time to officially turn things around. I can do this.

Have a good evening. Have a delicious night time snack and sleep well my friends.

Until tomorrow.