I'm a screw up

I am a screw up. I am a failure. I suck. That's how I feel. Breakfast was a failure   ;(. What is wrong with me????? I am CRAZY I am fucked in the head I suck.

I am tired of messing up. Ensure makes me sick. I need an alternative. I need to condense more. I need to not feel full I need to keep things down I need to stop with this nonsense. I hate myself right now!!!!! I am horrible!!!! I am pathetic!!!!! AHHHH.

Enough ranting. I will eat my snack. I  will move forward. It's all I can do. 

I NEED to get a grip.

Such failings