Learning

Just when I'm feeling better... Bam I get hit with urges and stupidly act on them. What is wrong with me? Today I was feeling good I felt like I was ok. Tonight I have not been ok. Dinner tasted good.. I wanted seconds and thirds and fourths. But instead of serving myself a little more I overreacted and went for the ice cream. Ugh. I feel like a failure.

But I'm not a failure. Nope. I am a warrior. This slip is, yet another chance to learn. I seem to be having a lot of these moments lately. Mistakes  to learn from. Sigh. I wish I didn't have as many "learning moment" but I have to deal with them. 

Tonight I was vulnerable. I didn't follow my whole meal plan and I didn't really have a snack. I had coffee and some peppers. Not a sufficient snack I know that. The food tasted good and I was craving more. I should have eaten a little more to feel satisfied. I was craving sweets so I could have had a piece of chocolate or a gummy candy. There are many things I could have done. I made a poor decision.

So Iearn and move on. Every day I am learning. Every day is a new beginning. A chance to become a better person.  I'm still kicking.