Challenging myself

Here I am thinking that my weight has skyrocketed this week... I've been eating 100% of my meal plan, no cutting corners, no calorie counting. I was certain I'd get a meal plan decrease. But do you know what?? My dietician says that I may be getting an increase soon! I'm so confused. I feel heavier. I feel bigger... but I'm not bigger. I'm exactly the same size as I was a week ago. Just goes to show how distorted my perception of myself is.

So I will continue following my meal plan and eating. I can do this. I know I can. tonight we are going out to dinner at Coco's diner and for the first time I will NOT be ordering from the "light and fit" menu. I will order a dish from the real menu. I deserve to enjoy my food and not just order something because it's the lowest calories on the menu. That's silly. I need to challenge myself more. In fact, this week my goal is to challenge myself with something every day. Sunday I want to make pancakes, and the challenge will be adding butter and syrup. Tonight will be ordering from the real menu. I don't know about tomorrow yet... I will think of something.

I am stuck. And it's not just my weight, it's me. I'm not challenging myself... the meals I eat are primarily whole grains and veggies and protein, and while that is healthy it isn't pushing myself. I need to bake and eat what I make. I challenged myself today at lunch with fettucini alfredo, and that was good. I need to start pushing myself if I want to move forward!! I want to have a full, meaningful life and that means being uncomfortable sometimes to get there. I know I will get there. One step at a time.

How are you challenging yourself today?