Struggling but not being destructive

Last night was hard. One of my younger parts came out and was walking alone in the dark. We had to call our therapist. We are ok now.

Today I am still feeling out of sorts... Just not myself 100%. Kind of anxious and sad. But I will be alright. 

I guess the big difference is even though I'm sad and struggling I haven't turned to any negative behaviors. In the past when I was really stressed I would restrict or purge or run. This time I am taking care of myself. I went for a walk last night and didn't purge even though I wanted to. This is a real test of the progress I have made. Getting through tough stuff without being destructive. I think this is a big step for me. I don't need to harm myself if I'm sad. It's enough just to be sad.

Being sad doesn't feel good. But I am ok. Really I have no plans of doing anything harmful. I am doing things differently this time.

Pushing through.