Wednesday, September 24, 2014

A new year

Tomorrow is Rosh Hashanah, the Jewish new year. I will be going tonight to services with my family and then I will send the day at temple tomorrow as well. I guess this is a good time to think about my year. It started out pretty Rocky../ but I've turned things around.

Last year at this time I was in del Amo hospital being treated for my eating disorder and trauma: I didn't get to go to temple and I was pretty bummed about it. But I did really well in that program and transitioned out in a really healthy place. I was eating, no purging, I was happy. But my parts were still a mess and I was ignoring them. I went three months doing really well with eating. I went to Las Vegas with my family in December to celebrate my birthday. My sister and I were closer than ever. 

In January I purged once and completely unraveled. I started restricting and purging. I got sneaky. I overdosed. The lowest point in my life. I was on life support for three days. After that was a stay in the psych ward, back to del amo, and then I started at Hanbleceya. And I relapsed pretty hard: but about three months ago I turned things around. And here I am.

It's been a tumultuous year. Ups and downs. Failure and successes. Life and death. Hospitals and difficulties but a big turn around at the end. 

This year I got stronger than I have ever been. Life begins anew this year. New beginnings, new chance to thrive.

Happy new year.

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