Right now the only thing I really feel comfortable in is skirts.... I find that they don't hug my body as much as pants or jeans or shorts and it's hot out so skirts are nice. I have a few skirts that I feel look ok on me, and that's what I've been wearing... and that's ok. I am almost at my target weight. I feel that I'm pretty much there. And if I can tolerate the weight gain by wearing clothes that feel comfortable I think that's ok.
Some day I'd like to be comfortable in jeans and shorts and tight tank tops. I'd like to be able to embrace my body for how it looks and wear a variety of clothes. Right now I just can't. I think I will certainly try to challenge myself with clothes. Wear jeans one day... shorts another. I will get there.
Clothes are a difficult concept for me. I hate shopping as clothing sizes are all different depending on which brand you are trying on. I don't like that I have a range of sizes that fit me, I wish it was just one universal size that I knew I wore and it didn't have to be a battle with clothing. The nice thing is all my clothes fit me when I'm at a healthy weight. I never buy clothes when I fall into the depths of my eating disorder... I just couldn't deal with growing out of the clothes when I inevitably gained the weight back. Basically when I get sick and lose weight, my clothes hang off me. And then when I'm healthy my clothes fit. I guess it's kind of a good incentive to gain the weight so my clothes will fit again. It's just hard getting used to the clothes sagging off me and then seeing that they fit my body properly. It's really uncomfortable.
Basically, wear clothes that make you feel good. Whether that's jeans or pants or dresses or skirts, you are beautiful no matter what you wear. Tshirts and sweat pants are ok too. I live in either skirts or workout clothes... and it's ok. I will reach a point where I feel comfortable in more clothes and you will too. Hang in there.
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