Calorie counting is a waste of time!

I have decided.... Calorie counting is a waste of time!! This morning as I was looking at my meal plan and punching in all the numbers for the food I'm Eating today I thought to myself this is just a big waste of time. It doesn't make me feel better. It doesn't make me happy. It makes me miserable. And why should I consistently do something that makes me miserable?? It's dumb. 

Today I have already calculated what I'll be eating but I don't need to go over it again and again in my head. I can stop here and just eat what I need without counting over and over. My body is getting what it needs and it doesn't matter if there's a 100 calories short or over. My body will adjust. This is so frustrating! I feel obsessively compelled to count every calorie :( I want to say I won't count again today but I'm afraid I won't follow through. I know the calories for every food I eat. Maybe I'll challenge myself; have a piece of chocolate or candy and not count it. I have a delicious amazing ghiradelli dark chocolate bar with almonds and sea salt, and I have peach rings haha. Maybe I'll eat those today and not count them. Baby steps right?

It makes me sad that food is no longer food to me, it's a number. A slice of bread is not a piece of bread it's 100 calories. That is not a good way to live. Some day I will no longer count what I'm eating. Some day I will be free.

Some day YOU will be free. Never stop fighting!!