Exercise: finding balance

Now that I am at a healthy weight I am allowed to do some exercise... YAY! Tonight after dinner (I was stuffed) I went for a brisk walk because I'm allowed and I thought it would help me feel better and less full for night snack. Well my walk was really nice. I talked to one of my best friends for ten minutes and then talked to my dad briefly and then listened to music. It was getting pretty dark but I felt ok. The problem is... I found myself wondering how many calories I was burning while I was walking and then found myself wanting to run to burn MORE calories. This is the problem.

I want to exercise to feel good, to get in shape, because I like it... NOT because I am trying to burn off what I've eaten. I deserve to eat and be nourished and I don't need to be purging in any way, that includes exercise, to make me feel better. 

I am stuffed still from dinner but have to eat my night snack... It will taste good but I wish I didn't have to eat right now. My stomach is so bloated and full. Part of me wishes I had restricted some at dinner but I know I did the right thing by eating what my body needed. Just because I'm at my target weight does not mean I fall back into old patterns now. I keep eating. Keep resting. Walk in moderation... And just try my best to be healthy. 

The key is HEALTHY. 

It's just hard to find that balance.